I’m trying my best to remain committed to my original 100 lb weight loss goal. I’m being kind and generous to myself with this goal by the way, as I could probably list a higher goal. I’ll see what happens and how I feel and how sustainable it is WHEN I reach that 100 lb weight loss. Yes, I said it WHEN I reach my 100 lb weight loss. 🙂

In preparation, I wanted to start journalling to keep a daily connection with myself, write out my gratitudes along with track how often I eat out in a month. Anyways, as I decide I want to journal, I immediately looked to my left and saw a pad of paper on the bottom of my bookshelf and thought, perfect! That’ll do! 

I grabbed it and was unexpectedly met with a STARK reminder on the importance of HEALTH and taking care of myself. The fist page is a list in my writing with notes I took from my mom’s visit to her chemo doctor’s office on June 17, 2005. I’ve included a screenshot of page 1 of these notes, but it goes on for a few pages.

Yikes. If I don’t think I have time to take care of my health now, this is my sign. I am blessed that I do not currently have an illness or a disease and I’d love to keep it that way. My mom had to take care of herself AND go to chemo AND go to radiation AND deal with sickness AND hair loss AND low energy AND so many pills AND a teenage son AND learning about her breast cancer AND researching alternative treatments while sick AND she was working at the time AND struggled with finances AND she ultimately had and recovered from a double mastectomy. And, and, and, and!!! Dealing with sickness is no joke. It is a full time job on top of an already full life.

So if my mind was thinking I don’t have time to deal with making my own health a priority, this is my sign from my deceased mother. A reminder to a potential future that awaits me if I fail to take care of my health now.

Even more stark as I flip through the note pad is another note titled ‘Things to Do’ and this is one page of a list of things I had to do in order to plan my mother’s funeral and get her house cleaned up and ready for sale.

So if you are like me and have been on the same wheel for what feels like your entire life, let this be your wake up call to make yourself a priority. What else matters if you don’t have your health? If you aren’t well enough to enjoy life or if you aren’t even alive to watch your children grow up and to experience life. If I strip it all away, all I really have is my health. Please universe continue to guide me in the direction of good health.

On that note, I recently went to a psychologist who does spinal energetics and she said the most wonderful thing to me. Spinal energetics is done lying face down on a massage table and the psychologist does energy work on you, there’s no talking and either no touching or minimal touching. At the end she asked me if I’ve had a few family members pass away and I’m like oh yah, my mom, my dad, my Oma, my Opa, even my father in law. She added there was so much love in the room and that I was surrounded by people who were rooting for me. She said it was a special treat for HER to work on someone with that kind of energy surrounding them. WOW. 

Back in 2020, when I decided to give up pizza and I was intensely focused on starting my health journey and the world was quiet due to covid, I had this moment where I could ‘feel’ an energy surrounding me. I had ultimately dubbed it my ‘love mob’ due to how the energy felt. Sounds nuts, but I’m happy that all these years later, without me even mentioning my family history, that this psychologist could feel this same energy.

Peace, love & plants,

Michelle 😊

p.s. In honour of my mom, please follow Dr. Kristi Funk. Hear what she has to say. She is a breast cancer surgeon and woman’s health warrior and a wealth of knowledge. She has been featured many times on the Exam Room Live podcast. I so WISH I had this knowledge while my mom was still here. My mom was absolutely determined to do what it took to get better and I know she would have been all over this to save her own life.